More Than Enough

As the late summer days cool down and slide quietly into fall, I find myself reflecting on the last few months with a sense of appreciation. It has been quite a mixed bag and as I’ve tumbled my way through, it has been a tribute to the truth that can only be found in learning …

What is Love

There’s something that happens the moment you realize that you deserve better. It’s hard to put into words, and maybe it feels different for each person who reaches that place. For me, it has felt like a Holy Expansion. Like my heart space has been blown wide open and suddenly I can see my worthiness …

Longing for Me

Every single person that I have met has a deep inner longing to be seen, known, and loved for the core who they are. And yet, we are all plagued by a sense of shame that if we are seen, we will be rejected. That it is not really possible to be fully seen and known and also to be loved. It is tragic that we put so much energy into hiding from the world. That we reject ourselves the most in order to avoid being rejected by others.

Begin Again

How do you make sense of something that doesn’t make any sense? How do you reconcile two deeply opposing truths and integrate them as both valid and real? I consider myself to be something of a story teller, and I always seem to choose to tell my own personal stories. There are some selfish reasons …

Orgasm and the Holy Grail

You might have guessed that this post might be particularly difficult for me to write, let alone share. It ups the vulnerability factor for me times a million and makes me intensely uncomfortable. It surfaces emotions I have often avoided allowing myself to feel or express. Please do your best to reserve judgements or criticism. …

Beginnings, Endings and the In Between

Today I turn 36. It’s not unusual for me to spend a bit of time reflecting on my birthday. On what once was, what may be. And this year there is much to reflect upon. I shared a post on Facebook the other day that says “I am not the same person I was this …

Yogi Bear and the Spiritual Path

I don’t know who I am anymore.  You can’t love yourself in pieces. You either love yourself or you don’t. I woke to these words echoing in my head this morning. My own words. Words I’d written and posted on this blog not so long ago. I didn’t fully know or understand this then but …

Healing, forgiveness and finding hope after loss

There was a time when I thought I could never be happy without children. I spent from 2008 to 2015 with one plan: Become a mother. Get pregnant. Conceive. I believed with all of my being that I was destined to be a mother and I would never, ever be okay without being one. That’s …

Behind the Façade

I have been really struggling with something lately. No, not just lately. Let’s make that always. I have always been struggling with this particular state of mind. I feel somewhat embarrassed to share this, not that I haven’t shared so many other personal things, but this feels particularly vulnerable to me. Perhaps it’s because this …

How it feels when a heart breaks

It’s funny how looking back at the memories Facebook saves for us can put into perspective how much things have changed in a relatively short period of time. What was my state of mind one, two, three, five years ago? What was I doing? What kinds of things was I worried about? And how much …